| A bottle that once held Ice Mountain water now holds week old Skohl Vodka. I commence my self to swallow every shot with dignity as I heave a little bit more every time, my iTunes plays a week old mix and I reminisce on week old events. It all seems to fit for the time being, maybe too able-bodied? |
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| The painful recollection of growing up is still in the process of beginning none of it has to do with the past anymore. I have dealt with the past and its many secrets already and I have my heart broken on the near future. I was once the friend the liar and the fool now I am unrecognizable, I proved something but that proved nothing. I feel like I am looking for some sort of justification but I know its not worth my time.
The ability to learn is the greatest freedom we all have and take for granite, hypocrisy is underlying you can learn to lie that's your choice, or you can learn to love. Which one of these is the better choice is disputable never facing the truth can be painful but so can love.
We take a swig of the nearest bottle and take our prescription pills in order to feel normal when all in all there is nothing normal about that. We are the only species that has to do that you don't see a dog whose an alcoholic you don't see dogs trying to annialate themselves unless taught by humans. Who I am to talk though? I would be a hypocrite not to point out my own dependencies. I understand why things work the way they do. I don't like it though.
Something’s are so amazing and I don't want to take my freedom to learn for granite.
“in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make”
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| We all have are underlying problems and addictions we all have our beautiful dreams and nightmares. I remember some of them others I do not, I like to remember the vividness of my self-conscious. That’s exactly what I am self-conscious, so maybe I should just forget. |
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| I want to hear about the good times, when I would stay up
all night and play the ouija board with Devon and eat pound cake and drink hi-c
out of the carton. Then first time Meg and I got drunk and threw up around
children at the park and we couldn’t even walk to her house. The parties I used
to go to and everyone would be there, when getting drunk was a big deal. When I
first meant Henry and we spent the next week together straight right after
meeting each other. Any of the times getting drunk with Tatiana. It was
all so innocent. It’s still like that though theirs just more substances, everyone’s
grown up a little too, but still so many more good times to be had lets just be
happy.
Sometimes I enjoy just laying around all day playing video
games with Henry, or sitting and watching movies with Meagan or sitting on Devon’s
floor while she talks.
Simplicity can be refreshing.
Kudos to Henry on the new job, everyone should be proud of
him.
I don’t like all the new features on xanga its
confusing and I am too lazy to do anything with them. |
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| I have concluded that I like wine, school starts soon and I have no idea how i am going to cope with it. Everything moves so quickly. |
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